My Mates! (best friends I met through life)! |
She NEVER uses her deviantart account anymore. She was actually the first person to introuduce me to fanfiction. And then fanfiction strangely led me to deviantart. Thanks to Dolphy...But ignore that she's MY BEST FRIEND EVER! We've been through a lot together me and that gal. We've been friends since pre school I would like to say. We used to got into a big arguement earlier in the years, but we sought that out and figured we would both be lost without each other. We would share each other our creativity meaning stories, basically anything our mouths would come across too also. (secrets are hard to keep though from one another) especially if it goes to the wrong person. hehe. but she's such a good friend and she supported me and still does as I do for her. We used to hang out so much, but those days are growing thin since we are both very busy nowadays. But we still keep in contact. I love her so much! And no...not like that haha sickos.
Learned something from people: Don't play fire with fire. And don't stoop down to someone's level. You just gotta show that your the better person then them no matter how hurt or pissed off they made you. Karma will kick back and will bite them hard in the butt soon! Thanks you guys. I do feel better with your advice!
Continuing with my mates I've met and will meet beyond!
(one of my old highschool friends I wish I can stay in contact with her, we used to hang out a lot during our classes/gym and she's a very cool artist)
I really miss hanging out with this gal. Maybe in the summer!
(great artist, very sweet to talk too, I wish I can stay in contact/ hang out soon with her)!! Athough she used to tease me a lot about Jim Hawkins and Avatar. She even made fun me and drew a picture of me reading a lot of books because I always used to bring in a book to read during art class in highschool. And it just so happens that two of the books were titled Treasure Planet and James Cameron Avatar (I enjoyed it...a lot then) But those were the good old days. :/ she also drew me another picture of Jim but I forgot what she drew him like. Haha. I miss those days. I know she's going to be great in her artist career As well as the RabidWookie. Very awesome people. I suggestion you go check their artwork out!
(haven't heard from her in a while but she can be very funny from time to time. She used to go on deviantart and write stories about the seven deadly sins and wanted to make a movie out of it with me and our friends in highschool. Haha. (It never happened really) I wonder how she's doing)?
Nick: He's very sweet, can be a bit clingy, but he's still a very sweet guy. He's probably actually one of the few guys who probably support me through this distaerous life I live in so far. Which I am very greatful (as well as Molly too). They're both amazing. I don't know what I would do without these guys honestly.
Anthony: He doesn't have a Deviantart account but he is cool dude. XD I literally just met him this year actually! But if I go over my friends house we sometimes would hang out with her brother and Anthony. We just sit, chat and drink and have a great time. He curses A LOT but I'm used to it. He can actually be a very caring guy.
Info about me: Alright guys, since I am feeling better within my depression and I think I regained myself over the past couple of months very well! I deleted the sad pathetic stuff I once wrote and I'm going to retry to write my bio agian! (and the truth)
I dropped out of college during my Sophmore year because I feel like it didn't fit for me and I dropped out for social reasons too. I figured it would be the best time too because a lot of people were mad at me for pretty pathetic intetions. But I am going to look into a different college soon (community college) and I am going to still continue to study graphic design. If there is animation/game designing I would study that as well. I'm into the graphics still.
I continued my horseback riding this year! And I instantly got back into the saddle. And I forgot how much I enjoy riding those beautiful creatures. I I've been trying to get a job at the stables I ride at, but I still got nothin. I would figure if I came back (after missing two years of riding) they would give me a job by now. But no, I'm still searching. Sadly I haven't retrieved my first job yet. I've only did volunteer, but still it's a little sad to admit that I didn't get my first job yet. I've been slacking A LOT.
I'm not saying that I had a HORRIBLE time when I first came to my college. But I just feel like I didn't fit in as well as others did. And you should always go with your instincts if you feel uncomfortable with where your staying right? I feel like I wasn't as loved as other people were, the people I knew were invited to things when I wasn't...I felt very left out. So therefore, that was one of the reasons why I dropped out.
I also suffered a great deal of depression this year. Loosing someone who I truly cared about was the worst feeling in the world. And after I felt betrayed by him saying he did want a girlfriend after all but...it wasn't me? Really hurt me. I don't believe I was such a bad girlfriend as he claimed me as one to be. I try my best to solve situtations when they are afflicted upon me, but then they just usually ended up worse (like that choppy intoxicating relationship ordeal Between me and him). I guess, all I really wanted from him was a better discloser since I felt was such a jerk. last time. But he won't even give me the time to talk to him. AT ALL. So I tried my best. I gave him what he wanted, and he still kicked me up like dirt. But even though I'm hurt by his words, and his decisions, I learned to let go, and to move on without him in life. To admit this he makes me feel not beautiful... and that was the roughest rejection I ever dealt with in my life, so that's why I was making it such a big deal earlier before. I just hope I never have to go through something like that ever again. I hope we do solve the situation sooner or later. Because I hate it when people are super mad at me for stupid things I feel I didn't do so wrong. I had my intentions I tried explaining now it's their turn to try to explain. I had enough of my time to share why I did those things for a reason. Sometimes when I spoke to those people I felt like I was really being unheard. But I just hope I can we can fix these situations sooner or later and not let them linger on us.
I do wish sometimes I have a tighter group of friends, but they will all come in time during my journey right?
On the brighter side of things, I do feel a lot better then I used too. I really do. Like I said before though, I do wish I had a tighter group of friends, but they will come in time. I know they will.
I actually have the courge to give college another shot and I have the courage to open my life up with someone new. I just hope I pick a better person in time then the ones I've dealt with in the past. I don't need anymore heartbreak in my life.
from dating experience, I can be very sweet and shy at first, but once you get to know me I start opening up like a flower. Some would say I can be 'clingly' but really I just get too caught up and excited when I do get a boyfriend in my life. Who wouldn't be? It's an exciting thing. I only open up to the ones who I can really trust. understandable right? Right now, I'm not exactly looking for a relationship since I had a very sloppy one previously. I am just focusing on keeping myself happy in the meantime. (and everything is going quite well actually).
Coming from my personal perspective: I am actually a really sweet girl to come by across. I can be very sensative though. I do enjoy a good laugh once in a while, but I don't enjoy it when people tease me about myself...I don't know I just get very sensative if it's about myself. I'm not a confident person most of the time.
Everything depends on my mood actually. If I'm shy, confident, or if it just even depends on the type of day. The weather and days actually take effect on me. So whatever the weather is sometimes, I feel. I have a very big imaginative mind. (You can obviously see that right)? I used to be pretty cheerful, but it just will take me time to be cheerful again. I lost my trust in people after the events happened, but its starting to grow back.
I learned to be extra cautious within myself, but I can also be fun and exciting. I am the go-with-the-flow type person. And sometimes if your lucky, you can catch me making a few people laugh here and there. I actually love making people laugh. I am caring and loving also. But if someone tries to hurt my feelings, I get very defensive and sensative. I sometimes usually CAN'T ignore them and mostly think about revenge or just them in general half the time.
What I love to do in my free time is to hang out with people, do artwork, and write stories. On ocassions I like to play video games and read.
I would love to go travel a lot and to see the world while meeting new people and making friends around the world. I think that would be an experience of a lifetime.
My joy in life is to: Spend some vacation time with the family, eating good foods, taking care of animals, and watching over children. They actually brighten up my life more then anything these things.
A Few Disney quotes I learned to love
"Being little isn't that bad." Flik- A Bug's Life
"Did you actually aim for that?"
"You know actually I did!" Delbert/ Amelia- Treasure Planet
"Son of a building block! It's Woody!" Mr. Potato Head "Toy story"
Jim: I got some plans, going to make people see me a little different."
Silver: Oh, sometimes, plans go astray.
Jim: Not this time. - Treasure planet
Why is it that your always to tall or too small? - The Mad Hatter Alice in Wonderland
love struck | crushing big time! | hyper | excited | cheerful | happy | calm | rampage mode | slapping a bitch | pissed | angry | peeved | mixed emotions | neutral | sleepy | nostalgic | uncomfortable | confused | sad | distraught | crummy | crying | depressed | jumpy | anxious | frightened | paranoid | deathly afraid | ???
god tier | perfectly healthy | healthy | okay | so-so | sick | drunk | throwing up | hurt | injured | recovering | critically wounded | mortally wounded | hospitalized | dying | dead | ghost
perfectly healthy | healthy | okay | so-so | a little off | hearing voices | seeing things | losing my mind | crazy | insane | never coming back |
My Youtube account!
(I don't have much up there yet; but I'm working on it)! (it's a private thing) I get too embaressed when my whole family is in the house XD
Current Residence: NJ
deviantWEAR sizing preference: ..Small/petite?
Print preference: Scanner I think
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: I don't really have a favorite photographer
Favourite style of art: Cartoon artists (Disney)
Operating System: Macbook pro...I believe
MP3 player of choice: I have a bijillion songs on my mp3 player...
Shell of choice: ...What?
Skin of choice: ?
Favourite cartoon character: Jim Hawkins! <3
Personal Quote: "Who am I? I am nobody." ~Rango "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!" Gandalf